Hi. I’m Corey Queen’s sister & Jeff Queen’s little girl.
I started this blog with the intentions of using it to explain the wonderful and kind heart of my brother Corey. On September 21, 2012, my brother wrecked his car and died…completely unexpectedly…and without a warning…at the age of 24. I thought my life couldn’t get any worse. I use this blog to explain my feelings, to ramble, to chatter about him…about how I feel…about how I felt with him and how lost I am without him.
I say things on this blog that I probably shouldn’t. I’m completely open about my grieving process and at times, realize that my dark and twisted side is showing a little too much for other people’s comfort. However, for some reason…I keep writing. It’s liberating to me, and it’s strange. I’m a closed person. I don’t sit and talk about my grief to people. I don’t like hugs, and I have very questionable thoughts about sympathy.
I was just starting to get back on my feet and my posts were becoming few and far between, along with my moments of feeling completely paralyzed by the loss of Corey. I was, and still am in no way okay without him….but I was starting to live again.
Then….on February 10, 2013, only four and half months later…my Daddy, age 45 (four days after his birthday) suffered a massive heart attack and died. Once again, I got no warning. No preparation…and this time. I’m starting my grieving process at only about 50% strength.
I’ve lost half of my immediate family and the two most important men in my life in less than 6 months. I’m hateful. I’m mad. I’m withdrawn. I’m most negative emotions.
I’m also blessed though. I have literally the worlds greatest family. My Mommy, Uncles, Aunts, cousins…they’re amazing. I have friends that aren’t just friends…they’re my family too, and I have a community that I can feel standing behind me even though I’m screaming to be alone.
It’s all quite confusing to be honest….to be so broken..and so blessed…at the same time…but…it’s my life. Pitiful and glorious all at once.
February 1, 1988- September 21, 2012
February 6, 1968- February 10, 2013
5 Responses to “Hi. I’m Corey Queen’s sister & Jeff Queen’s little girl.”
Kelsey my heart goes out to you and your family. I never had brother but I have a sister and I could not imagine my life without her. nor could I imagine my life without my boys. I think about Corey daily and pray for you and your family daily . if you ever need anything please know I am here for you. I think it is awesome that you are doing this. always know that Corey is watching over you and he would be proud if you. R.I.P. you are missed by many people.
I can’t find the words to express how truly sorry I am that Corey is gone. Growing up as close as we all were makes it hard on so many people. Even though we all grow up and move away from our small town we are all still like family and losing a part of that family is never easy. I use to love hearing Bub tell stories about Corey’s craziness and all the good times they had. When I found out about the accident it just broke my heart for you but i also kept thinking “what if that was my brother” and there is no way I could survive it. I think about you and your family so much and pray that God eases the pain. Corey was a part of so many families including mine. He is greatly loved and missed by so many and always will be. Please keep telling his story because it is so special. RIP Corey We will never forget that wonderful smile and contagious spirit that you shared with so many. Love you!
My favorite memories of Corey are…Buffalo Wild Wings with Lisa when she was in the hospital. He told me to go home, I was exhausted but knew he had it under control. Pictionary in the kitchen with him n Lisa vs me n Sarah. Not sure who won, lol. Christmas Eves. His offer to hang my lights this year:). Making fried yellow squash at 1am when he showed me just how his mom made it. Ditching me n Sarah off the couch when they came home late, n waking up covered in baby powder. Being thrown in the pool. His advice to Sarah to wear cowboy boots the first day of school and making her try on his. Seeing him rub Lisa’s back as she acted like a biotch n just smiling where she couldn’t see him. Trying not to be mad when he laughed like crazy when Sarah fell off a horse. The Pioneer restuarant. The way he lit up this house when be came in n made us all smile. I know everyone else has the best stories to tell. He was special to everyone who knew him. Don’t have a single memory that doesn’t make me smile. I feel blessed that he was part of our lives.
We will always love corey with all are hearts n will miss him forever. Kelsey you n ur mom have been thru a crazy few months together, u guys are the strongest women I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and will only get stronger. If you all ever need anythang y’all can get ahold of us n we will b there asap!!! Jus want u guys to no that we are always here thanking bout u all n will do anythang to help u all get thru anythang u need help with love u guys
They both live in you and through you, remember that. Cherish all the memories.
I lost my brother 3 yrs ago this Aug, at the hands of someone. I dont think there is healing, I just feel loss, and so much pain.
You gave me strength, just being able to read that your able to put your grief in words.
I have a daughter….and now my life is to just be the best mommy…
and I will.
Thank you..be strong